Today

I am forever thankful for any kind of baby carrier that'll allow me to get stuff done, all the while keeping the little one happy and content.

I have discovered he gets all worked up after his tummy time and his play mat time, the carrier is a great way to calm him down; and eventually he'll give into the sleep he wants to have but often time fights.
With him in my carrier, I can lean down and kiss his head, and it smells SO good:)

I am forever thankful for this little guy.
He is crazy tiny right now, but I know he won't always be like this.
And in comparison to when he was born 6 weeks ago, he is already so much bigger.
He truly is a gift.  I appreciate him; can't believe he belongs to DB and me. 

Will goes to ATT Park

we had some lovely weather over the weekend
so we decided to go for a run along the embarcadero; and to our surprise ATT Park was open
DB was thrilled to take Will on a little tour of this place he'll soon know very well


nothing beats the beauty of a father taking care his son... pure love.

quite the contrast being at the park when it was so empty

Will was super excited to meet Lou Seal


I am still surprised DB let him hold him! 

now we are back to the grind, with DB off to work every morning
leaving Will and I to do our daily routine; its more fun when DB is around.

Will is starting to smile more frequently and learning to use his voice by making all kinds of noises...
 i can't wait until he starts laughing!  that'll be the best!

Lessons Learned, installment #2.

Let the learning continue.
My newest list of lessons learned in the brief 41 days of  being a mom.

Life with a baby gets better with every passing day,
we are getting to know each other, and I love him more with each day!
I enjoy the way he makes me laugh!


Lesson Learned:  Laundry is constant.
It has grown exponentially since this little baby arrived on the scene. 

Lesson Learned:  Stock up on blankets
You'll need a lot of them

Lesson Learned:  Stock up on burp cloths
You'll need a lot of them


Lesson Learned:  Recovery takes time and patience
Physically, it takes much longer than anticipated and or desired.
Emotionally, it takes time.   

Lesson Learned:  Breast feeding...It's no joke.  
In order to have prepared myself for what it would be like I should have tried waking up every 2 hrs for a 24 hr period; simulated the real deal by getting out of bed (where it's warm and comfy) taken off all the clothes above my waist; walk into Wills room, sit on the couch;  attempt to stay awake and not freeze, for minimum 40 min. 
And then repeat, 8-12 times in a 24 hr period. 
If i had done that,  I would have gained a glimpse into what my new reality would look like; from a scheduling standpoint.
(Yet nothing can fully prepare you for the real deal)
From a physical standpoint; hard to prepare for that one as well.
It took me 18-22 days for the razor sharp pain to subside.  Not kidding.
During those 1-2hr breaks in between feedings, ice packs.  That's all I'll say about that.
During those breaks, I'd pray his stomach would expand and he'd sleep longer, just for a little break.
I'm a special case: insert pumping to stimulate increased milk production; add that to the after feeding, before the next-- yup lack of sleep really is the name of the game. 

I'm conjunction with the above; pre baby I didn't full grasp the amount of time per day breast feeding would take.
When breast or bottle breeding, one is sitting. 
I have a job where I sit less than 8 hrs a week. 
We own a couch I don't find comfortable to sit in. 
Never in my life have I sat down so much; well maybe for school and even then it was in smaller increments and wasn't around the clock. 
I've loosely calculated how much time I sit feeding my super hungry perfect little baby...
and it's a lot!! 
Almost 18-25% of my day is spent sitting.
It challenges my patience and my mind. 
With breast feeding; along with everything else, it gets easier and better as time goes by.  I've made it 41 days; almost 6 weeks, in my book every passing week I don't give up...
It is a success. 
It's hard. 
They tell you that, but the defining pieces of what that means I'm sure differs from woman to woman. I wish I knew more than I did going into it; to be more prepared, if that's even possible.

Jealousy.
I have learned that this thing called jealousy is nasty yet real.
DB gets to leave the house and do his work thing.
I'm jealous of his freedom.
This lesson hasn't been learned,
Its more of me figuring out my role during this transition and during this time
 I am attempting to figure out.

Lesson Learned:  Its all good.
Through the challenges, this transition into parenthood, the lack of sleep, all of the above...
 It truly is good.
Surviving labor and delivery,  becoming a mom, its changing me for the better

5 years in 5 months

5 months from today, we will be celebrating our 5th wedding anniversary!
hard to believe 2008 wasn't that long ago; lots has happened in our short period of time together; and most currently with our hugest life change of adding a child to create a family of our own.
today we left our little one for the first time (36 days after Will's birth)

we took off to some near by wineries and made an afternoon of it.
and it was lovely.
Will spent time with his hair-color-twin-grandma this week

ohmyword...they are cute, and funny!

gotta cut this short, will is asleep and DB just made me dinner...adios!

Lessons Learned

DB and I have had plenty of moments these past three weeks when we simply looked at each other:: in disbelief, in laughter, in tears, in awe, and in exhausted-eyes-barely-open "we should have known this" moments.
In those moments I thought, "is this for real?"
Reality hasn't full sunk in yet, Im not sure what reality will feel like.  

In the moments when DB and I have had the chance to debrief, we have discussed the many Lessons Learned in our very short amount of time as parents...and I'm certain there will be hundreds more!

Here are a few::
Lesson Learned: Don't leave the house empty handed.
This past weekend we ventured off to a near by park with some friends.
In the hustle to mobilize our little Will and there 3 kids out the door,
 I failed to grab my bag (contents: bottle, diapers/wipes, pacifier).
Three Things A Mom Should Never Go Anywhere Without!!  
Rookie fail on my part!
Needless to say DB had to run back to get the items I failed to pack

Lesson Learned:  Know how to put on a diaper properly 
Last week I discovered that Will has this super ability to pee out his diaper!
I was feeding him and all of a sudden my thigh is wet right under his little body.
When checked, his clothes were wet, and majority of his diaper was dry.
Note:   Endure diapers are both, the right size and properly secured in place!
Noted: Babies pee a lot, newborn diapers are tiny and fill up fast!

Lesson Learned:  You will adapt to lack of sleep
Week one, we discovered we both had energy reserves we didn't know existed.
We were (still am) sleeping so little and being on call for around the clock care for little Will,
its surprising we are getting out the house everyday and able to function.

Lesson Learned:  Having a baby slows you down
DB and I have never spent so much time at home, ever.